Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Things are looking up

Can I just say I LOVE daylight savings??  My favorite time of the year is finally here....I will now be sublimely happy until November.  All this daylight and warmer weather makes me want to be on my bike!  Time again to start judging wind patterns, and evening rides can now be routine, although from the status of my legs after our Monday ride, my muscles have a LOT of catching up to do to get back to where I was last fall.  (Note to self: don't completely abandon all exercise next winter!)  At least now when I collapse on the couch, we've got the spring cycling classics to entertain/motivate me to work harder!

The timing of the warmer weather and sunny days seems to mirror what we are experiencing personally too.  The winter months were full of stress and worry and sadness, but all that seems to be melting away.  We had our interview with the adoption agency last week; it went amazingly well, and since then I have been...dare I say it....excited?!  I haven't been truly excited about much the past few years, and I haven't allowed myself to be hopeful in a long time, but I think those days are mostly behind me.  To be fair and honest, I'm sure there will still be tough days, but today at Target with my mom, I could walk through (through! before I would do everything I could to avoid it!) the baby section without feeling that all too familiar pang of bitterness.   I even passed a young mom with a newborn strapped to her chest, and I wasn't jealous, only excited that that could legitimately be me in the near future.  Except that I will still have a flat stomach while carrying my newborn...gotta count my blessings, right? ;)

We have a busy couple of months ahead of us before things are final - still have to complete the formal application and homestudy - but every step now brings us closer to what we've been praying for for so long.  My sister reminded me of Jeremiah 1:5, "Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations."  That verse means even more to me now than it did before this journey started.  God already knows what baby is ours.  He has set it apart for us to raise.  And I love that child already.


  1. Oh Jo, I'm so happy for you. We can't wait to meet your future little one! :) 1 John 5:14-15